Monday 22 June 2009

Sambungan Kawin

Assalamualaikum.

I was going to update this last week, yesterday jua, and this morning. Tapi kan its coming close to the moving house time and whenever I wake up, I never have anytime to sit down and update my blog. Tapi I have been thinking of what to cerita about next, and I think I have got it. Tapi I wont write yet, kinda because its 6am in the morning and I need to sleep and wake up later at 12. Also, kinda inconsistent with excuse ku inda update tapi I have been watching bones. Season 3 is messed up. Berabis.

Ok then. Sambungan esok.

Salam

Wednesday 10 June 2009

Kawin

Assalamualaikum

This year im 24. Tua sudah actually and to be honest with everyone, I have never had a proper girlfriend. To be honest with you, completely honest, only lately have I actually seen this as a blessing. I always use to think that there was something wrong with me, something I had to change. I think the answer to this was I needed to grow up a little, grow out of the person who use to think that having a girlfriend and 'main main' sama a girl was the most important thing in the world.

I think I have finally matured enough and you know what I have realised? I dont need a girlfriend at all. It has all been a blessing to get me to this point in life where I have finally realised what is the most important thing in this life. Its not being in a relationship, its not about being scared of dying alone or anything along those lines. It is to be the best muslim you can be.

"Life is short"

Indeed it is and this is why there is no time to be messing around with girls, or guys. And since life is so short, we need to strive to be the best people we can be. I am not saying that you cannot have girlfriends or boyfriends, who am I to say what you can do or what you cannot. Nobody has the right to tell you what to do, well besides your parents but that is because they are responsible for you. But the most important thing is, whatever you decide to do, always remember Allah.

Well my point is, aku wah. I have finally come to a stage in life where I have decided that I dont want a girlfriend. I want a wife. This makes it so much harder. I dont need to tell any of you because im sure you know. The diffrence between gf/bf and kawin is miles apart. Sudahtah im a very fussy person, now tons of other things have come into searching for that special someone.

Pokoknya cerita ku ani, things have gotten so much harder. Tapi to be honest with you, I have never been happier with the way my life is going and how I am progressing as a person and a muslim. Alhamdullilah.

So if any of you readers are having a hard time, cursing your luck about how life is treating you or just annoyed that things arent going your way... sabar saja. Allah has a plan for all of us so all we can do is have faith.

Ok atu saja.

Assalamualaikum

Monday 1 June 2009

The Beach

Assalamualaikum

I have suddenly come into a stage of very high traffic for my blog. Well higher than it usually is. So I am probably going to have to censor some of the stuff I say now to be more careful about annoying someone. I appreciate the people who come to read what I have to say though. Hopefully by reading it will bring your life joy. And hopefully I can serve as a good reminder to not only all of you, but to myself as well.

Ok so today I went to Margate. There is a pantai there so we all thought it was a good place to go and spend the afternoon as the sun was shining and it was quite warm. Its the first of June and there is only 30 more days to spend time with all my seniors. You gotta make it all count because time flies. Well anyway, at one point while we were all fooling around on the beach, I had to sit down and relax sekajap because ngalih berabis. This gave me time to reflect. There is nothing better than being with nature and just trying to relax and calm yourself. And I thought to myself, why dont I do this kind of thing more instead of wasting time in the house and playing games. Its a shame how much of this year I have spent sitting in the living room not really doing much. Sayang.

I guess its easy to realise now how my laziness has made me lose out on alot tapi esok esok, bebalik jua ni main game sampai 8-10 hours. Its Syaitans way of making me waste time is what I have just realised. I finished watching the documentary of 'the arrivals' and am amazed at the amount of work they have put in just to make people realize what we are actually put on earth for. Even though controversial, its message is simple. Allah has blessed us with life and has asked of little in return. There is 24 hours in the day. Kiranya tidur 8. 16 hours in a day for us to use as we please and all we need to do is pray 5 times a day. Inda sampai 40 minute from the 16 hours we have been granted. Even this is hard for us to do.

I read that Nabi Muhammad SAW used to pray until his feet were swollen and he used to ask Allah for forgiveness 70 times a day. This is the prophet, the man who had the qualities we can only dream of achieving. If my badan sakit, instead of praying dulu I lay down, sometimes tetidur and then sembahyang akhir sikit lagi miss waktu. Aku kan bebuat macam atu. Mun Nabi Muhammad SAW minta forgiveness 70 times a day, just imagine what we should be trying to achieve in our everyday lives. Main game dapat. Liat TV dapat. Main bola dapat. Even 5 minutes during these activities, duduk, tutup mata and beg for forgiveness. Ani syaitan punya skill kan buat kami lupakan kepada Allah. Making us enjoy dunia. No matter how young we are and how much time we THINK we have left on earth, it is nothing compared to akhirat.

We have been given the Al-Quran and sunnah nabi as guidelines. We are suppose to take Prophet Muhammad SAW as an example on how to structure our lives. No matter how invincible we feel at this moment, it could all end in an instant.

So to use an old bruneian saying, 'sembahyang sebelum kana sembahyangkan'

Hopefully we can all change our lives for the better. There is never a point where we cant improve ourselves as muslims and human beings. Insyallah.

Forgive me if I have offended or maybe sound hypocritical.

Bah

Assalamualaikum