A PLACE TO LEPAK

2010-06-25T03:51:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

First, apologies kalau banyak typos berabis. Im using a keyboard im berabisly not use to and also in a bit of a rush. Point of this post is it was my first jumaat back in brunei today and i was looking forward to it because i enjoy the UBD mosque. Nothing can beat it in the UK. Nothing can beat it in most places. Everything seems small in comparison. Nada emotional feel i have with the UBD mosque.

My favourite time would be time sembahyang raya. Bangun at 530 to make sure dapat parking arah masjid (we dont jalan at 530, bangun saja pasal kami batah kan get ready). ngalih ngalih berabis because time ramadhan bangun at 3pm everyday. But when u go into the masjid you still feel ngalih and its even worse because the aircond plus wudhu water makes you very cold. This makes my nose fill up with ingus. At least nowadays ive learned to bring tissues. Kalau masa kanak kanak pakai baju saja. HAHAHA.

Anyway back to my point. I was looking forward to my first jumaat back. And it was good. Masuk masjid ada familiar environment. The whole feel was also very bruneian, which i like. Kalau sembahyang di uk, u dont get the same feeling. Macam everyone strangers saja. Tapi the thing that felt missing was the khutbah. Hari ani khutbah was pasal dadah. Dont get me wrong, im not supporting drugs or anything, i just think the khutbah maybe a little out of place to the people who actually go for sembahyang jumaat.

Ill try to not sound too preachy here but I think what the islamic authorities, the government and the imams should really focus on is bringing stronger islamic values to our lives. I just feel that focussing on drugs is only addressing a small part of the problem. I think we need to focus on the basics. Get people to come back to religion, strengthen their religion, then focus on other goals.

Religion first. And what better way than to bring people back to the basic principals. When we have a strong foundation, a problem like drugs would be easy to kill. Also, are ciggarettes a drug? hahaha. Ada problem kali tu trying to get rid of that problem.

Well this is only my first jumaat back. I may be talking nonsense so forgive me kalau ada tesalah cakap.

Insyallah update again soon.

Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh

2010-06-05T19:33:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum warrahmatullah

Hello all. I wont bore you with the normal 'sorry aku batah inda update' stuff. Im sure most of you know aku ani pemalas especially when it comes to times when I have so much free time on my hands. Its when im at my laziest to do anything besides main game. If I could get a game console and a tv hammered to the ceiling so i wouldnt have to get up ... I would still probably find something to complain about as I would still have to get up and make food. Changing game cds would also be a problem kalau the console is on the ceiling. Its still a good idea though for a lazy gamer. Probably not the best for a normal person.

Banarnya the only reason why I have worked up enough effort to update is because I am in a jiwang mood. For those of you who dont know, I am a hopeless romantic. I always have been. Since my days in SOAS ive always been dreaming of ways to sweep my (imaginary) girlfriend off her feet and amaze her with my totally awesome acts of romance. My siblings, who also probably read this, think im gay for doing it. We as a family have never really been that in touch with romance. Membari malu saja kalau ngam kedapatan aku kan bejiwang sama (imaginary) girlfriend / wife. But nevertheless, the ideas flow through my head like water from my super leaky kitchen tap.

Today I re-watched 'definitely maybe' again. It is up there with my favorite love movie of all time, 'Love Actually'. Gila I could watch these films over and over and never get bored. For the more relatable (spelling!!) jiwang movie, I waste hours upon hours with 'ayat ayat cinta'. Ohh Aisya how cantik you are. Berapa kali sudah ku liat and also think about how differently I would do things if I were in that situation. One of the reasons aku iski berabis kan ke Egypt back in april was because aku kan relive the whole film. Sadly, balum masanya. But Alhamdullillah, best trip I have ever been on.

So here's the whole point of this post. Why am I so caught up with this idea of romance? Or rather, why am I so caught up with this idea of a western romance? Even ayat ayat cinta, despite the marriage being done in a halal way, I THINK that the main guy atu is concerned about the western concept of love.

How you fall in love at first sight. How you automatically know this is the person you are suppose to live the rest of your life with. ...(insert other movie scenarios) ... In my opinion, these are all western ideas about love.

Im not saying this is wrong. I have been pretty much obsessed with these ideas. How I wish to meet my future wife and automatically know that this girl is definitely (maybe :P) the girl im going to spend dunia and akhirat with. It drives you crazy this idea of love. You long for it. Obsess over it. Stress yourself out over it. Get depressed over it. But why? I ask myself the same question all the time.

The only thing I can think of is that we are desperately looking for the person who will complete us. Who will complete our Iman. Who will make us better people, better muslims. I think most would agree.

But lately I thought of something else. Who better to look for when we want to better ourselves. Who better to complete us. Who better than our creator Allah the all mighty, the all knowing. How can we ask/beg Allah for our soul mate, for love when we are missing out the most important thing. Love for our lord. We (maybe just I), take too much for granted when it comes to these matters. We (I) ask for so much but give so little in return. You need to think back right to the basics.

Why were we created?

To worship Allah.

Next would be how do we worship Allah? First there are the five pillars of Islam then the 6 pillars of faith. You can make individual questions for all of these and I could be here all night so instead I will skip to the most important one in relation to what im talking about.

How do we love Allah?

We love our parents im quite sure. They brought us up, made us into the fine people we are today. Can we honestly say we love Allah in an equal manner to our parents. This is already wrong. We should love Allah more than anything other person, thing or idea. Now this is true love. This is the love which is the most powerful in the world. Now I will share with you something I read from a book. This is not exactly what I read so I ask for forgiveness for any inaccuracies.

Allah created an ocean of love. One drop from this ocean has been divided into all the love we have for things. Love for a girlfriend. For a beautiful man/woman. For football. For games. For everything except love you have for your lord. And when you find this love, Allah will bless you with oceans of love. And this is true love. Then you will have endless love for your wife/husband. Only when you understand the love for your lord will you get anywhere close to truly loving anything else.

Apologies kalau ada salah sedikit/banyak. This is pokoknya i guess. To find love, we need to first love Allah. This can be very easy of very difficult. All matters are up to Allah to decide. It has all been preordained so dont worry about it. I can say honestly that I am MILES AND MILES AND MILES away from where I should be. Where I want to be. So ive realised, how can I ask for marriage when I myself am not where I should be as a good muslim.

Insyallah one day we will all reach the highest level of love and religion. Insyallah we will have a loving spounse to share this with. Just remember that Allah doesnt test any of us to more than we can cope with. Just stay strong and chillax, have faith. If your faith is lost, so is your religion so never lose it. Insyallah.

Ok its 4.15am. SAYA MAU TIDUR!! Hopefully update again soon. Apologies again kalau ada tesalah cakap, nasihat, type or totally inda make sense.

Assalamualaikum warrahmattullahi wabarrakattuh.

2010-05-05T16:48:00.001-07:00

I love this video.

2010-03-14T16:25:00.000-07:00

apologies batah inda update. its essay season and since ive decided to do the bar, its added tons of work onto my already full plate. so its going to be a while.

assalamualaikum

Belief in Allah

2010-02-25T20:03:00.001-08:00

Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakattuh.

Im going to take a short break from the home sweet home posts ive been doing. Partly because im a little depressed about the whole kawin thing. Long story short.... lain kali saja lah. Instead, its islamic week (or the end of islamic week) in canterbury kent uni and ive been going to a few lectures about islam. Its really opened my mind to some of the issues regarding Allah the Almighty, the Prophet Muhammad S.A.W and being a good muslim.

What does it mean to be a good muslim? Rukun Islam and Rukun Iman is a good start. Always keep good morals. Do what our parents tell us to do except for syirik (setting up partners to Allah). But i think i can take it back to just one simple thing, belief in Allah the one and only creator. It is all fine and dandy to say that you are a muslim, but when push comes to shove, you need to ask yourself honestly, how much do you believe in Allah. Now I know this is a very sensitive question but this is all necessary to see how good we are as muslims. So to start, and show im not being hypocritical or anything, im going to tell you how I was a couple of years ago. Not even years maybe banarnya.

Ive been praying since my parents went on Haji when I was waiting for my O levels to come out. I have to admit, partly because I wanted good results, but also because I wanted my parents to come home safely. I think, to the best of my knowledge, I have not missed a prayer since that day when my parents left. Of course ive missed the time to pray but ive always made them up. This was especially the case in Maktab Duli as id kumpul all my prayers and do them sudah ku balik dari sekolah. Sekolah for me at that time was for dating and going to gadong. May Allah forgive me for my stupidity when I was younger. For subuh prayers, only a few months ago I started waking up to pray them properly. Lagi talur.

So if I were to count the years ive been praying, it will come up to 8 years. But when I think to myself, how many of those years did I have complete faith and confidence in Allah. I think it would have to be zero. See, being born a muslim, I take things for granted. Sembahyang because that is what a muslim is suppose to do. Puasa, bagi zakat, naik haji, all because a good muslim is suppose to do these things. But this defeats the purpose of being a muslim. We dont do it because everyone else does it and we feel obliged to do it, we do it because of our love for Allah. Not for reward, not for fear of being punished, simply and plainly for the love of our creator. Im not saying that fear and reward should not be used as a starting point, because nobody can go from being a zero to the best muslim in the world. We start to do these things we are told to avoid the hellfire and enter paradise. But as we grow older, learn more and live life, we suddenly sadar how much Allah has granted us (blessed us with) and asked for nothing in return but for us to worship him and only him. Why ask for anything else from our creator? Why must we expect a reward for everything we do when we have already been granted the best blessing we could ever be given, and that is life.

I saw alhamdullilah to all of the muslims who are trying to better themselves. There is no greater way (I think, forgive my bluntness) to please Allah than to sacrifice the joys of the dunia in order to strive to become a better muslim. What upsets me though is the muslims who take everything for granted. This is why is said we need to ask ourselves how much we believe in Allah.

If we believe in our creator, why do we continue to disobey his orders. Why do we continue begatal gatal, where clothes which shows off body parts, blatantly fornicate which each other.. not just in private tapi in public jua! Im not saying i havent done these things because unfortunately I have. It just shows that my faith was not that strong. So why do we do these things? Maybe we do not believe in Allah. Maybe we live and then we die without being held accountable for the things we have done. Maybe Charles Darwin was right and we all did evolve from monkeys. (Funny story here, i type theory of evolution in google to find out darwins first name and the wiki page comes up. It doesnt say THEORY of evolution though. Just evolution. Sitahu jua si wiki ani, tarus tarus kan shout out to the world that evolution is not a theory)

So how do we prove to ourselves that Allah exists? We can just say to ourselves that we believe but those are just the words of the ignorant. A good muslim has a duty to find the answers to these questions as you cant just follow anything blindly. So where are the answers to these questions. That is the Al-Quran. The holy book which contains the words of Allah sent down to the Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. Im not sure which ayat and I apologize for just quoting blindly without giving you the verse number but there is an ayat in the Al-Quran which states that (and im paraphrasing here) 'the signs of Allah are all around you. All you have to do is look at the sun, the moon, the stars the sky and the seas and these are all the signs given to you.' (It would also help kalau ada orang with the actual ayat here, apologies again) Allah has also said to the disbelievers of the Al-Quran that if you disbelieve in what has been brought down to you, then go and create something like the Al-Quran (again, paraphrasing because im not sure of the full ayat).

I know my explanation wont be the most convincing one made to a non-believer or one with little faith, and I blame that on my ignorance. But basically the point here is that there is nobody who can make something anything close to the magnificence of the Al-Quran. Not even the smartest person in the world. Let alone when we consider the fact that the prophet (may peace be upon him) was unable to read or write. He was neither a poet or a scholar and yet he brought with him the the Al-Quran. So how can you deny this truth? Its in the Al-Quran that its words are protected and have never been altered. It has been memorized and passed down for almost 1500 years without ever changing. This is fact. It says so in the Al-Quran and you cannot deny this. The only thing which has changed after 1500 years is the narrations from the Al-Quran. This is why we have different understandings and different practices around the globe. As the Al-Quran is the most perfect form of literary work, there is of course different understandings of it.

What is important though is to almost keep the basics close to our heart. Believe in Allah. Believe in what he has granted us and that is the Al-Quran and the practices of Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. Know that there is no doubt of the existence of Allah our creator. If you still doubt, then read the Al-Quran and understand it. We have been given a brain to think. Use it. Learn something which is important in life. Maths will only get you a scholarship to again pursue more useless knowledge. We could die tomorrow without ever knowing the true bliss of being a good muslim. This is why we need to strive to better ourselves. Learn from the Prophet, may peace be upon him. We have been left his sunnah to learn from. Why continue to deny this when everyday we come closer to the only certainty in life (Death btw).

Ok sorry to go on forever. I just needed to get that off my chest.

Subahannallah.

Alhamdullillah.

Allahuakbar.

Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Part 3 - Home Sweet Home

2010-02-22T23:32:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Again sorry for the delay in writing part 3. I was in Manchester for the whole week and had little time to write anything. Main farmville saja.

Ok so I have talked about what to look for in a husband and what to look for in a wife. Ada one question about if there is any proof saying why a man should have good moral conduct and good religious background. I cant really find anything specific in my notes about why your future husband should have these qualities, but there are tons of verses from the Al-Quran and from the Prophet S.A.W sunnah that a man should have these qualities anyway. Everyone should strive to get these qualities to become a better muslim. Thats the best I can give you unfortunately.

COMPATIBILITY

So you have found the person who has the perfect qualities to become a spouse. Should you marry right there and then? Of course not. There are plenty of other things that you can discuss to make sure you are making the right decision. Are you compatible in terms of intellect, physical looks, financially, morally and psychologically? And of course are you compatible in terms of iman and spirituality? All of these things can be important in the future because your spouse will not only be your spouse in the dunia, but they will also be your spouse in the hereafter.

This is why picking a spouse is so important. Its not a decision you should take lightly. You should get to know the person you are going to marry before you actually marry the person. But this does not mean dating is halal. Dating is still very much haram. But there are plenty of ways to get to know a person without going into haram territory.

Taaruf, meeting each other via family and friends. As long as inda jumpa one on one saja. There are plenty of other ways jua masa ani with technology at the peak of the social mountain.... or something. Facebook, msn, hotmail bla bla bla. But when doing this you need to watch what you talk about. It is halal as long as what you are talking about it not something you will be embarrassed about if each of your parents or guardians tebaca it. This makes sure you arent talking about anything yang inda tantu tantu. Sorry I dont really have any proofs to back this up. This is actually my take on the whole situation but please feel free to post anything that you may not agree with or stuff you may want to add.

Now you've found yourself the perfect girl or guy. What next? Kawin. Alum. There is a 4 point method before you take the plunge.

1) Istishaarah (consulting others)

Asking people about the other persons background. Collecting information about what kind of person they are. Do your homework before making one of the most important decisions in your life

2) Istikhaarah

Imam an-Nawawi rahimahullah said "In this [the narration about the istikhaara of Zainab radi-allahu anha] is a recommendation to make istikhaarah for anyone who has any matter concering him, whether the goodness in the matter be clear or not. It may be that she made istikhaarah due to her fear that she might fall into some shortcoming in serving him (Prophet Muhammad S.A.W)"

3) Determination

After you do these 2 and if you get signs from the istikhaarah prayer, act accordingly with full faith that you are doing the right thing as you have received a sign from Allah.

4) Trust

Yah. Put your trust in Allah and dont hesitate. Alhamdullillah you have found your soul mate and are on the road to completion of your iman.

Thats all for now. Hopefully all of that made sense. Please leave comments and feedback. May Allah bless us and our future choices, or if kamu kawin sudah, may Allah bless your marriage and your future children. Amin

Ok. Assalamualaikum

2010-02-21T15:05:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum

update tomorrow. promise. I have an essay to finish before i can start with my next post

Part 2- Home Sweet Home

2010-02-15T15:22:00.000-08:00

PART 1 - CHOOSING A SPOUSE/PARTNER/WIFE/HUSBAND (cont)

The 4 conditions in looking for a wife

Assalamualaikum warrahamatullahi wabarakattuh

So here is the 2nd part of the first part, If you get what I mean. Hopefully the first part went down well and I was able to convey the lessons I was taught properly. Hopefully I did it justice. I also thought of something else a while ago, I think at the end of part 1, I will try and give my thoughts on everything and try and explain stuff the way I think it should be explained. But that will come sooner, not yet, as there is still quite abit to talk about. Moving on.

The big picture. The Ummah. The people of Islam and the true believers. These are made of nations. Nations made of communities. Communities made of families. The core of the family, the woman. The woman is the mother, daughter, aunt and the wife. They are the heart of the family which is why is it very important to find the best woman you can so you can have a happy family. This is why, every female, every girl and woman needs to work on there faith. They need to improve themselves as a muslim as they hold the responsibility not only to look after their family, but also their husband. Lets say a husband and a wife has 4 children. This just means that she has 5 children to look after. Its simple maths.

The Prophet Muhammad S.A.W said that

"A woman is married for 4 reasons. Her wealth, her lineage, her beauty and her Iman. So choose the one with good practice of iman, may your hands be rubbed in dust"

So we can see here the 4 things we look for when looking for a mate.. or rather a wife. I say things and not conditions because these arent conditions to find a good wife. There is only 1 thing needed for a good wife. This is iman.

A nice thing to keep in mind. A wife with iman, you have 1 point. A wife who is also beautiful, add a zero to that and you have a 10. A wife who also has good lineage, a good family, add another zero and you have 100. A rich wife on top of all of this, 1000. But take away the iman and all you have is 3 zeroes. Whats most important? Iman. Iman. Iman.

Another note. Imam Ahmed rahimahullah said

' If a man seeks to get married, then he should ask about her beauty first. If she is beautiful, then he should ask regarding her deen (iman). If she is praised for her deen, then he can proceed and marry her. If she is not praised for her practise of deen, then his rejecting her will be on the basis of religion. He should not ask first about her deen and then her beauty. This is because he will then be rejecting her based on her beauty, and not religion.'

Beauty - You can look for a beautiful wife. But dont build your married life on beauty alone. Remember, Iman.

Lineage - Coming for a good family. One with good ancestors. This isnt good being famous or anything. Coming from a family who is regarded to have been a religious family and good iman.

Pleasure - Allahs Messenger S.A.W said "life is a form of pleasure, ad the best form of pleasure in this life is a righteous woman"

Treasure - Allahs Messenger S.A.W said "Have I not told you about the best treasure that a person possesses? The righteous woman: if he looks at her, she pleases him. If he asks her, she answers him and if he travels, she protects her chastity."

Fertility - Allahs Messenger S.A.W said "Marry the fertile and loving; verily, i am going to be boasting about your abundance among other nations on Judgement Day." (This means the number of muslims on the day of judgement. Good muslims come from good families. Good families come from good mothers)

Virgin - Self explanatory. HAHAHA.

Ok so basically, choose a future wife who has good iman. Pokoknya alim lah. Its important because a husband with good iman and a wife with good iman, this is the best start to starting a happy family.

Ok so atu saja for now. Unfortunately im going to be going to manchester for the whole week. Not going to be able to update for around 5-6 days so dont bother checking for a while. Please comment and share your thoughts and knowledge. That will be awesome. Its also late so I havent had chance to proof read. Apologies for any mistakes that I probably have made.

A proper run through when im done with the whole part, with my views and thoughts. Any questions made on the comments will also be done i guess, if there is any. Bah.

Assalamualaikum Warrahmatullahi Wabarakattuh.

Part 1 - Home Sweet Home

2010-02-13T18:58:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh

First of all im going to start by trying to outline how im going to go about this. Reason it took me a while is because I cant really find out how I am going to do this most effectively.

The stuff that is taught may seem harsh, maybe to some a little old fashioned, but these are the teachings of the Al-Quran and Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. Nowadays, sex and the like are all the rage. Divorce rates are sky high, unplanned pregnancies. All you have to do is look at the mall and realise that values have gone. Its because we think these teachings are old fashioned that we decide its ok to maybe leave out a few of the things which are vital to having a strong iman. A quote from one of my teachers in MD, times may change but religion will always be the same. Dont think that because we are getting more westernised we can just forget our religious values. ISLAM TEPAT ISLAM.

Ok so secondly, I want to thank the AlKauthar institute for organising a learning institution which is so refreshing in a time where we lose sight of what is really important in life.

Last but not least, a huge thanks to Sheikh Alaa Elsayed for an amazing lecture and talk. I thought I lost all motivation to study, but after the weekend I just realised ive just lost motivation to study law and other useless subjects. Its made me realise that there is still so much that I dont know about my religion and there is still so much I need to learn. A quote from Sheikh Alaa to start off

"The thing about knowledge is that the more you know, the more you realise you dont know"

Bah lets start. I apologize for any mistakes I may make in my conveying of the knowledge. May Allah forgive me for my mistakes and my sins and let me by sincere in trying to share what I have learned. Amin.

PART 1 - CHOOSING A SPOUSE/PARTNER/WIFE/HUSBAND

The 2 conditions in looking for a husband

Prophet Muhammad S.A.W advised us

"Choose carefully for your children. Marry the suitable and give in marriage to them."

1) Moral Conduct.

I think this is rather self explanatory. When a woman is choosing a partner, well banarnya husband, they should look for one who has moral conduct. One who is able to be sensitive and treat the woman with the respect she deserves whenever she needs. And we all know that women do need this, a guy who listens, a guy who is sensitive and a guy who shares his feelings. We dont need to look far for this, its always in the movies.

The prophet s.a.w also justifies this reasoning by saying that 'If one chooses a partner who does not possess moral conduct, they may not treat the woman with the sensitivity that she deserves'.

"Bad statements are for bad people [or bad women for bad men] ad bad people for bad statements [or bad men for bad women]. Good statements are for good people [or good women for good men] and good poeple for good statements [or good men for good women]. Such good people are innocent of every bad statement which they say. for them is forgiveness and Rizqun Karim (generous provisions. ie paradise) al-Noor 24:26

2) Religious Background

"The diffrence between the man and the state of disbelief and ascribing partners unto Allah is leaving the prayer" (narrated by Muslim)

Basically. Pick a husband who is alim and has faith. A good muslim.

Think about this, if a man forgets his duties towards Allah, do you think he is going to bother with his duties towards his wife. Maybe a month or two, but marriage is for the long run.

3) Other Factors

Appearance - Prophet Muhammad S.A.W recommends that a wife sees her husband first so that she can be content with his appearance.

Fertility- Well his ability to have children. Is this self explanatory? Im not sure.

Piety -1. reverence for God or devout fulfillment of religious obligations: a prayer full of piety.
2. the quality or state of being pious: saintly piety.
3. dutiful respect or regard for parents, homeland, etc.: filial piety.
4. a pious act, remark, belief, or the like: the pieties and sacrifices of an austere life.

Im not sure if this helps. This is going to be all for now as it is getting really really late. If you want to ask any questions please feel free and leave a comment. Maybe your comments will jog my memory into what Sheikh Alaa said and help me explain a little better. Feel free to leave any tambahans to what I have wrote jua. Correct me if ada salah.

Ok next will be what to look for in a wife.

Assalamualaikum and good night

2010-02-07T16:41:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakattuh

Hello and hi kamu semua. I know ive promised balik2 to try and start updating again, tapi nada jua ada. Tapi this time is diffrent. Alhamdullillah I just finished a course about cari bini, kawin and life after. I hope to be able to share the knowledge with all of my friends and readers and insyallah we will all be blessed with a good family life now and in the hereafter. So this is just the initial post, getting everyone ready again and to try and get people to come back and start reading.

Insyallah ill start in a couple of days.

Assalamualaikum

An Awesome Article by Huma Ahmad

2009-12-28T09:01:00.000-08:00

I found this article really good. A nice reminder to all of us

Freedom.

Young people live for the day when they can move out of the house and go to college and finally be free. Freedom from their parents, from restrictions on their lifestyle, from everyone telling them what to do.

This is why in college you find a whole generation that does what they want. Life's short they say, let's enjoy ourselves while we can.

So it goes for Muslims. In college you find the most amazing things, Muslims who don't pray, Muslims who date , go out to parties and drink.

Why is this happening?

For one, when students go off to university they finally realize that what they believed in was blind. Religion becomes like a fairytale, when they got old enough, they knew better than to believe in it.

Most have little knowledge about Islam and have maybe memorized the right rituals to get by. Why believe something on faith, they ask. After all we cannot see heaven or hell. How do we know Islam is right anyway?

Islamic culture to them means marrying someone they never knew. It means arranged marriages and never hanging out or having fun.

For girls Islamic culture has even less to offer. It would mean double standards or having to serve a husband the rest of her life.

The western alternative to this looks alot more attractive.

In western culture "love and romance" are supposedly everywhere. Everyone is out looking for love freely. Meeting someone, going out, seeking pleasure sounds alot better.

But what about the downside? For love at first sight, you need to have the right image, the right hair, the right clothes.

Girls have to aspire to be like the latest supermodels, they have to hold back age. Who's going out with who, what are my friends thinking, what will happen if I don't get the right girl or guy, what is my girlfriend or boyfriend thinking, all become important.

Frustration, desperation, and unhappiness become the norm.

Imagine all the heartache youth would save if they followed the Islamic alternative.

In true Islam, unlike culture, there is no game playing. If two people wish to be involved they are both straight with one another.

Unlike what goes on today amongst some Muslims, they both meet each other and make a contract to marry. Women are treated with respect, there is no sexual bombardment like there is in western society. Sex in western culture is also often seen as a vice or a sin of the flesh. But even in religious Islam, sex is seen as natural. As long as it is in the right circumstances, when the two are committed to one another in marriage.

Drinking in college is also the norm unfortunately. If you don't drink or party you're seen as weird. Drinking is cool and a way for people to socialize, meet and have fun. The one who doesn't is less of a person and 'misses out'. Drinking and all the harms that come with it is cut off at the root in Islam. So many problems are avoided, accidents, pregnancy, violence and even rape for example.

In college and in the world, success in life is not seen in terms of religion. It is seen as what other people think, one's careers, how much money they make. If you are religious you must have failed at life. But why do we have this seperation? and this blindness in religion?

The Quran tells us again and again not to have blind faith, not to follow the religion of our forefathers.

Yet, we as Muslims have stopped thinking. We may think about what our friends or other people will say, but we avoid thinking about the real issues.

We spend so much time on the opposite sex, thinking about careers, money etc, but we forget to think about death and how much of this we will really be able to take with us?

"Every soul shall have a taste of death and only on the Day of Judgement shall you be paid your full recompense...for the life of this world is but goods and chattels of deception"
(Quran 3:185)

Shouldn't we take the time to contemplate what will happen to us after we hit the grave? After all, what is the point of life if we are not accountable for our actions? If there is no creator, what is the point of being honest or good.

If we really look at our life we see that everything is indefinate, getting a job, even living until tomorrow. In fact we could die anytime, this is a definate, the _only_ dead certain thing in our life.

Most of us believe we can make up for our actions later or we can be religious later.

We are gambling.

The chances of our dying today are little, but the stakes are high. Allah reminds us of the importance of this,

"O you who believe, obey Allah as he should be obeyed, and die not except in a state of Islam" (Qu'ran 3:102)

Each of us needs to decide.

On the Day of Judgment it will be us alone who will be asked about our actions.

"Verily We have revealed the Book to thee in truth, for (instructing) mankind. He, then that receives guidance benefits his own soul: but he that strays injurs his own soul..."
(Quran 39:41)

This is the true definition of freedom. To learn about Islam and the world openly. To contemplate about life and death. And after learning the truth, obeying the word of God.

"Those on whom knowledge has been bestowed may learn that the (Quran) is the truth from your Lord, and that they believe therein, and their hearts may be made humbly (open)to it..."
(Quran 22:54)

Once students have this rock-solid intellectual belief in Islam, the corruptness and falseness of the people around them is clear. The beauty and wisdom of the islamic way, the best alternative is clear. What others do is of less importance. If others think they were weird to pray or weird to be honest, they would still pray and still be honest because they know their deen.

Our Quran's are left on the top shelves, gathering dust. Sometimes the most it is read is when someone dies. How is this to help, when the guidance comes too late. The Quran is for the living. The path to understanding and following Islam comes from learning first.

How many of us are Muslim, yet have never read the Quran in our native language?

How many of us are Muslim, yet have yet to open a book on hadith or sunnah?

How many of us defend Islam to non-Muslims, but do not follow it ourselves?

May Allah forgive and lead us and all those lost to the straight path.

InshaAllah.

Ameen.

By Huma Ahmad
based on a talk by Abdul Wajid "Born to be Brown", UK

2009-12-06T19:32:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum warrahmattullahi wabarrahkattuh

I promise to start updating soon. Its been killer with all these assignments flying in from every direction. Kan main game lagi cana. Ive been taking 3rd year abit more seriously than the previous 2. Inda skip class, doing my reading, blajar, buat essays, main game sedikit saja, so its been a tough 2 months. Application bar lagi kan di pikirkan.

Well im going back to brunei next next monday 14 dec.

Instead to make up for the lack of posts and boringness and lameness of this blog...

Id watch it if i were u. hahahahaha. apologies for the language. Its all for the memories.

Ok then. Salam

Im a mac

2009-11-07T16:25:00.000-08:00

A couple of days after my last post, my pc died. For some reason the screen didnt want to turn on. So I sent it to curries to get it fixed. Up to 29 days for me to get the laptop back. Gila! Kan buat kraja uni cana. So I weighed my options and finally decided to go for what countless other people have already discovered. Bali Mac. Love Mac. I went to London a couple of days later for the 15% discount. In kent 6% saja. I left London with a brand new 13 inch 2.26 Ghz Macbook Pro. 15 inch was 450 pounds more expensive unfortunately. I got home and carefully opened the plastic bag it was in. I know that sounds ridiculous, carefully opening a plastic bag. But apples plastic bags are more like bags which u bring ur football boots around in. Lawa lah. On my lap was the sleek looking box. Aku buka carefully. Inside the box ada laptop, charger, a piece of paper and a CD. Compared to all PC's, it was simple and a joy to buka. Mac had me before it even had a chance to say hello, which it did when i turned it on for the first time.

So pokoknya, bali mac. When ur pc is failing u, bali mac. My newest pc, yang baru baru rosak, after countless hours researching the best laptop to buy and finally deciding on a HP, it only lasted me 10 MONTHS!!!

I picked it up from curries yesterday. Turned it on. Macam aku balum lagi antar ke kadai wah. Exactly the same problem, inda mau on. You wonder bahapa dorang with my laptop for 2 weeks, pakai as a stand for their MACS kali.

The only thing im not puas hati with dengan mac is nada SOPCAST. Inda dapat stream football. There is a way, but all the crossover applications and install this and that makes me not want to bother.

Ok abis tia my explanation for not updating even though i promised too. Expect normal service to return soon, kalau aku inda malas. While kamu menunggu, why dont u watch this.

Assalamualaikum warrahmattullahi wabarahkattuh

2009-10-21T15:32:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh

Hi guys. Its been close to 2 months now since i last updated tapi ive had good reason. First month was bulan Ramadhan and I never really found time to be able to update my blog. And its not like I had alot to talk about anyway. My whole holiday in Brunei, again, was very uneventful just like last year. And I got back ke canterbury a couple of weeks ago, missing the first week of lectures so I have had lots of catching up to do. Ive decided to take things seriously this year, and I know I say that almost all the time tapi kali ani banar aku inda eksen.

To those who care, a couple of days ago was my last day as vice president of MBSOC. Malaysian Bruneain Society. Sayangnya this year macam inda brapa laku. 1st years just dont seem intrested. But since I havce an emotional connection to the society, as I have it to thank for many good memories for the past 2 years, ive decided to help out in a lesser role. Ehseh, si tahi aku ani eh.

Personal life, well as I said previously, sibuk ku with work and I havent had internet. Internet ani pun ku curi dari bruneian neighbours yang baik berabis. I guess work should come first masa ani anyway. Well second to football. I have class tomorrow tapi inda buat kraja pasal the champions league show is on.

Bah expect more normal updates soon. Ive been reading this book which has inspired me to take my faith to another level. Well try anyway. Insyallah.

Ok then. Thanks to those who have tagged, sorry nada bereply. Much appreciated nonetheless.

Assalamualaikum

2009-08-24T11:24:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

First of all a very happy Ramadhan to everyone. Hopefully we all have a very good fasting month and may many blessings be rewarded to us all. Amin

Second, apologies for not updating for a while. I have been very lazy. But good news is, ive decided my next post will be about love for someone for the sake of Allah. At first I pretty much thought I knew what this was, but when I really thought about it I realised I didnt really have a clue. So I had to ask around and read some stuff about it and I think I have finally grasped what loving someone for the sake of Allah means.

Surat al-An'am, 162. "Say: 'My prayer and my rites, my living and my dying, are for Allah alone, the Lord of all the worlds." This ayah states that everything we do is for Allah. Kind of self explanatory but we cannot take this for granted. Everything we do is for Allah. So everything we do, from what we eat and drink, what we say, what we think, the relationships we make, everything should be done with Allah in mind. So here we realise that we cannot love anything or anyone more than we love Allah. This is in fact plain and simple. Love for people or love for objects, these things were all created by Allah then why should the love we feel for those things be measured up to our love for Allah.

So first thing we need to establish in our lives is that there is no greater love than our love for Allah. This isnt hard. All we have to do is look around and realised everything we have been blessed with is a gift from Allah. Bonds of family and friendship are all gifts from Allah. Everything is a gift from Allah that I dont even need to write these things down, if you can think of anything which you love, this is a gift from Allah.

But what is loving someone else for the sake of Allah?

When you see something beautiful, a nice painting for example. You dont praise the painting for looking amazing, you praise the artist for an excellent job the artist did. Now the larger picture. You see where im going? Siapa siapa saja hot kah, lawa berabis kah, they dont deserve the praise. But this is a shallow way of looking at things. What really matters in life is not for these worldly pleasures, but it is for our efforts for the afterlife. So what we should really love a person for is for their Iman, their good deeds and everything they do for Allah.

This didnt make much sense to me at first but later I came to realise that we may think we love someone for how they look or maybe even shallower, how much money they earn, the car they drive etc etc, but I dont think there is anyone who actually thinks that this love will last. This love is temporary and is a trick from Syaitan to make us forget about Allah. When we love someone it should be for the sake of Allah, which means we follow the guidelines set upon us by the Al-Quran and do not commit any sins when persue-ing it. I guess this also applies to loving a girl/guy outside of marriage. We shouldnt look for someone, whether we look for looks or whatever and love that person because we think we can make a good life with that person. We should love someone because we think we can do what we can for the afterlife with that person, loving that person solely for the sake of Allah.

Inda romantic? Inda passionate? These worldly pleasures shouldnt worry us. All we should worry about is making sure we are ready for the next life. This isnt a single job either as we need someone to help us through this journey and this is where our significant other comes into the picture. Love for him or her for the sake of Allah, love for Allah will be the greatest love we will ever feel and lets pray we will be blessed by Allah and may our lives be easy.

Im not sure if I made much sense. I kinda hurried the last bit because football is on. Hahaha.

Ok Assalamualaikum

2009-08-08T10:07:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Do you believe in Allah? Its a simple question which most of you will instantaneously say yes. In fact any other answer other than yes probably means you lead a very pointless life. But for all of us that did say yes, it is time for question number 2. Since you believe in Allah, why do you think it is so hard to do what we have been instructed to do in the holy Al-Quran. To fulfill our duties and to leave what we have been forbidden to do.

These are 2 very simple questions we can ask ourselves when reflecting on life. To be a proper muslim, we need to fulfill the 5 requirements, Rukun Islam. Number 1, the most important one is mengucap dua kalimah syahadat. Professing ones belief in the oneness of Allah and that Nabi Muhammad SAW is Allahs messenger. It is a simple place to start when asking yourself what kind of person you have become and how you are going to improve yourself from now on. Its simple to ask, but merely saying the syahadat is not enough. You have to believe with all your heart in the words you are saying not just because you are suppose to, but because you know that Allah is our creator and our purpose is to serve Allah.

Still sounding easy though? Bagus Allhamdullilah. Then there is no reason why we cannot complete the tasks we have been given and to leave all which is forbidden. Sembahyang, Puasa, membaca Al-Quran, Beribadat, Zakat, menutup aurat, makan makanan halal, no alcohol, no dating, no mingling between men and women, inda mengumpat...

Why is it so hard to do these things? Kami malas kah? We think we still have tons of time to insaf. We think that its ok as long as kami percayakan kepada Allah. Only Allah knows why we do the things we do and only Allah knows how long we have to insaf over the sins we have committed. Everyday is a challenge. Even the most holiest of us have bad days and only one small sin can be the start to the rosak-ing of our iman, our faith. That is why we need to better ourselves everyday in order to prevent this from happening.

Payah pulang and you may read this and think, esok saja. Or I may be totally in the wrong, trying to feed my ego by preaching to you all when I myself am far from being half decent. Only Allah knows and all we can do is try and do what we think is right while always asking Allah for forgiveness for any sin we have committed, knowingly or not. So think not badly of me for sharing my opinions and I apologize kalau ada salah yang im trying to say ani.

Ok atu saja kali dulu. Assalamualaikum

I love August

2009-08-05T08:54:00.001-07:00

Reason being is there are so many birthdays of people I know this month. Also my birthday is in August. But enough about birthdays, its just another day anyway. More importantly, Ramadhan is coming soon and hopefully all of you are ready for another month of fasting and sembahyang terawih. Ive always enjoyed ramadhan, especially the days when I dont have to go to work and I can just chillax at home. Its kinda just like every other day I spend at home when im not working, tapi being ramadhan, its extra special.

Ive been thinking lately about mencari bini2. I think its almost impossible. Not that I have been trying though. Its more like, I dont know how to cari while still trying to strengthen Iman. I know it just takes one act and it can destroy everything you try so hard to improve upon. Making mistakes once and then asking Allah for forgiveness is fine, thats why it is called a mistake. But doing it balik balik and your taubat just seems pointless. A sincere taubat is also a promise that we will not redo the same sin from which we are seeking forgiveness from. This is one reason why I plan on not dating, not main2-ing with girls and going on pointless dates. To find someone to love in the name of Allah is a huge challenge. And being able to put aside all the doubts and fears you have, to be going almost blindly into a relationship and a marriage, this is where faith really comes into play. To believe fully that Allah would not set things up this way without there being a reason. Who are we to say the old ways of cari bini and cari lelaki are inferior to the courting rituals masa ani.

I dont know really. Payah wah banarnya to be able to promise yourself to a person and also fully accepting that person into your life, and vice versa. It seems like an impossible task. I guess thats why we need to keep the faith. That there is a plan for all of us and we just need to chillax a little. Stop rushing life and giving into our urges and temptations. Insyallah we will all find the person we are meant to share our lives with. Amin

Assalamualaikum

2009-07-31T09:15:00.000-07:00

hinting kah tu?

2009-07-26T09:42:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum to all my pembaca-ers

A recent tag has gotten me thinking. I think I am overly sensitive with the way I look and how this makes me come across to other people. When you openly admit you feel insecure over a certain attribute of yourself, you leave openings for people to come and make fun of you. Its all in good fun of course, mana siok kalau orang ani overly sensitive that they cant even take a joke kan. But I think the way I act around people has left me open in too many places. Ada tia jokes about tingginess, lampuhness, bulatness, past girlfriends, recent prospects tapi inda menjadi (this was months ago for those of you wondering)and tons and tons of diffrent things. Pokoknya, I think out of every single one of my groups of friends, and I have a couple, aku saja yang banyak kana make fun of ani. Im not complaining here even though it may sound like I am, this is just a realisation of how I act determines how other people treat me in return.

As a good muslim, you take everything that is directed at you and turn in into positive energy. Jangan marah, jangan balas balik and jangan merajuk. These are all negative things that doesnt bring any good to you as a person of a muslim. Ani yang I try my best to do everyday, even though the balas balik thing is something I probably lose out to the most. Tapi kan, if only I didnt go on and on about how short I am or how I need to lose weight, these kinds of things wouldnt be happening.

Allah created all of us and when we start complaining about height, weight and the like, it is like we are openly rejecting the gifts and blessings we have been granted by Allah. We are all special and all perfect in our own way and we have to realise this and be thankful.

And remember Allah always, not just when you are in times of need. Imagine you have a friend who only looks for you when they need something. Annoying berabis kan. Well its beribu juta times worse when we forget about Allah.

Haha beribu juta.

Ok atu saja. Assalamualaikum

2009-07-22T10:00:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

So playing monster hunter almost the whole day kinda makes you feel useless after a while. I know its awesome and stuff, killing monsters, but i need to find other things which I can do while playing PSP so as to seem im not completely wasting my time. This ranges from jogging up and down the 19 stairs I have in my house, its a good way to stretch the muscles and keep oxygen pumping through my body. This though is kinda difficult when I am super concentrating on the game. I might miss a step and gugur. So I need to keep it fresh, keep the brain thinking and finding other things to do. Walking around in circles. Walking in the garden for fresh air. Tapi the best thing I have found in sitting down on my comfy chair in front of my laptop and let my shows play while im main game. Its not that difficult to watch something while playing game. I may not catch some key moments in whatever im watching but I get the gist of it. So far in the 2 weeks I have been back, 63 hours of Monster Hunter and 3 seasons of Burn Notice, WWE PPV yang latest, Chun Li the movie, Watchmen, Final Fantasy Advent Children and some other random things I have downloaded tapi inda pernah liat. So all in all, its been a good 2 weeks.

The most eye catching and attention grabbing movie I have watched though has to be Syurga Cinta. A malaysian movie about soulmates. It is much so in my top love movies ever. I dont know why these movies get to me though. Well I do know tapi im not saying because itll make me sound even more like a chump. Well anyway, Syurga Cinta is awesome. Some of the acting may be a little bit off, especially the opening 5 minutes when the main actor is talking English, baru balik dari UK and kan clubbing tarus. Something about the Malaysian accent which catches my funny bone. But the story line, predicatable tapi top notch. A religious love movie. I love it.

There was this one part, about soul mates. There are 3 types of 'jodohs'. 1 is jodoh dari Iblis. This is when we think we have found the one tapi its just the devils trick to make us fornicate and mess around with, sin lah basically. 2 is jodoh dari Jin. This is when one person is so obsessed with one person but the other person isnt, so black magic is used. The 3rd one is jodoh dari Allah. I forgot the speech that came with it tapi the title of the film was mentioned. It was awesome.

And I learned one thing from the movie. Even though getting married is what I think the next step in my life is, its going to happen when its going to happen. There is no point in obsessing over it and there is no point in looking too hard. I just firmly believe that I know what im looking for and insyallah I will have my eyes open when the opportunity arises. And hopefully I will be able to pursue that opportunity whilst being a good muslim. Insyallah.

Ok atu saja. kan pukul 2 sudah. Good night

Assalamualaikum

2009-07-20T08:26:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum.

My psp broke. Its actually my brothers psp. I have spent the whole day wondering around the house wondering what to do with myself. Its very depressing when I have the whole world just outside my door but instead I spend time sulking indoors. On the other hand though, playing monster hunter takes me into a whole diffrent world where I kill monsters. AHHHH IM ADDICTED!

Tomorrow I have been back in Brunei for exactly 2 weeks. Its been good. I have been going out while fitting in tons of time main game di rumah. Meeting up with old friends, main bola 2 kali, bukit shahbandar sekali, makan luar sama family. This is why I love being back home. There is just something very diffrent living in a foreign country and I dont think I could ever do it permanently. Something about being back home with family, having the freedom to roam around without having to take the bus and also paying 2 pounds for a daily bus pass. 5.50 ringgit tu bui. 7 hari, 38.50 ringgit. Kalau pakai kereta moderately inda sampai 20 ringgit seminggu. Well thats for me anyway. Ive been driving around for 2 weeks and 1 tank alum lagi abis. Suka ku Brunei ani ehh.

On my travels being out and about I have had a couple of deep conversations and learning how some of my more distant friends are now living their lives. Its depressing. The way some people live their lives so carefree, forgetting everything including religion. The way the simple things in life are taken for granted. The freedom we have in Brunei. The rezeki we have been blessed with. And this doesnt just come down to money food and drink. Most of us are lucky enough to be living very healthy lives.

While we enjoy these worldly pleasures, we forget about what we are actually meant to be doing with out lives. While we are busy going out chasing girls, kami lupakan sembahyang. While we are working our jobs kami lupakan sembahyang. Its not just lupakan sembahyang, every moment we take a breathe of air, that is another moment Allah has blessed us with life and we should be thankful by remembering Allah. Not only do we forget, we also do exactly what we have been told not to do. Get distracted by worldly pleasures. Im very much guilty of this as well, even though I hardly go out, main game is just as much a waste of time as spending hours in Gadong cari chicks. Instead of other things I could be doing which would actually benefit me spiritually, hunting monsters tepulang. I know this all to well and I understand just how hard it is to give up.

I guess this is the disadvantage we have of living in the modern world. We are surrounded by distractions. Understanding that religion doesnt change no matter how much the world advances is key. Just because people go out bedua-duaan (girl boy boy girl) doesnt mean we are now allowed to. Same goes for aurat. Same goes for everything. It is not now ok to do things just because the modern world suggests that it is ok. Religion is religion and Islam is Islam. What was Wajib and Haram in the past is still exactly the same now. The line between the two will never change no matter how much time passes. I guess this is the burden we have to live with while being thankful to Allah for making life easy for us. Make it harder to be a good muslim while being able to enjoy the joys of hunting virtual monsters.

It is all a test. We need to strive and better ourselves so we can call ourselves good muslims. We dont have forever. I can imagine that most of the people reading my blog are more or less the same age as I am. Cuba kamu imagine we are lucky enough to live until our 80s. That still gives us 60 years to repent for all the sins we have done. Kamu rasa cukup? It is never to late to change and ask for forgiveness from Allah, as long as we are still alive to do so.

Ok atu saja. Its 2am and im blabbing.

Assalamualaikum.

Back Home

2009-07-14T04:32:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum,

Im back in Brunei and have been back for almost a week. Im still having trouble staying awake after 8pm but even if I sleep I can still stay that way for a good 10-12 hours. Hancurzz. So I think I still have jetlag. Its only been 6 days so oklah. For those of you who are intrested, im here until October but sudah start Ramadhan, im pretty much going to be busy all the time. Sleeping and eating probably :S

The reason i havent updated for so long is because I havent had a proper internet connection for a while. Well thats kinda a lie. I left my house in kent on the 1st and stayed in London until the 7th. Got back to Brunei on the 8th and now its the 14th. So I have had chances to update and I have had stuff to talk about, its just again, by the time the clock hits 8pm, KO. The only reason im typing this little thing out is because I have a free 20 minutes before I go out for the first time since being back in Brunei. First time going out masa malam. I remember back when i was 18-19, trying my best to stay out until well after midnight. Nowadays, 23-24, kan sampai 10-11pm pun payah payah kan tahan.

There are a couple of ideas I have which may make intresting future posts but not today. I do want to take this opportunity to remind everyone that tomorrow in His Majesty's Birthday.

Ok atu saja.

Assalamualaikum

Sambungan Kawin

2009-06-22T19:52:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum.

I was going to update this last week, yesterday jua, and this morning. Tapi kan its coming close to the moving house time and whenever I wake up, I never have anytime to sit down and update my blog. Tapi I have been thinking of what to cerita about next, and I think I have got it. Tapi I wont write yet, kinda because its 6am in the morning and I need to sleep and wake up later at 12. Also, kinda inconsistent with excuse ku inda update tapi I have been watching bones. Season 3 is messed up. Berabis.

Ok then. Sambungan esok.

Salam

Kawin

2009-06-10T21:12:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

This year im 24. Tua sudah actually and to be honest with everyone, I have never had a proper girlfriend. To be honest with you, completely honest, only lately have I actually seen this as a blessing. I always use to think that there was something wrong with me, something I had to change. I think the answer to this was I needed to grow up a little, grow out of the person who use to think that having a girlfriend and 'main main' sama a girl was the most important thing in the world.

I think I have finally matured enough and you know what I have realised? I dont need a girlfriend at all. It has all been a blessing to get me to this point in life where I have finally realised what is the most important thing in this life. Its not being in a relationship, its not about being scared of dying alone or anything along those lines. It is to be the best muslim you can be.

"Life is short"

Indeed it is and this is why there is no time to be messing around with girls, or guys. And since life is so short, we need to strive to be the best people we can be. I am not saying that you cannot have girlfriends or boyfriends, who am I to say what you can do or what you cannot. Nobody has the right to tell you what to do, well besides your parents but that is because they are responsible for you. But the most important thing is, whatever you decide to do, always remember Allah.

Well my point is, aku wah. I have finally come to a stage in life where I have decided that I dont want a girlfriend. I want a wife. This makes it so much harder. I dont need to tell any of you because im sure you know. The diffrence between gf/bf and kawin is miles apart. Sudahtah im a very fussy person, now tons of other things have come into searching for that special someone.

Pokoknya cerita ku ani, things have gotten so much harder. Tapi to be honest with you, I have never been happier with the way my life is going and how I am progressing as a person and a muslim. Alhamdullilah.

So if any of you readers are having a hard time, cursing your luck about how life is treating you or just annoyed that things arent going your way... sabar saja. Allah has a plan for all of us so all we can do is have faith.

Ok atu saja.

Assalamualaikum

The Beach

2009-06-01T22:04:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

I have suddenly come into a stage of very high traffic for my blog. Well higher than it usually is. So I am probably going to have to censor some of the stuff I say now to be more careful about annoying someone. I appreciate the people who come to read what I have to say though. Hopefully by reading it will bring your life joy. And hopefully I can serve as a good reminder to not only all of you, but to myself as well.

Ok so today I went to Margate. There is a pantai there so we all thought it was a good place to go and spend the afternoon as the sun was shining and it was quite warm. Its the first of June and there is only 30 more days to spend time with all my seniors. You gotta make it all count because time flies. Well anyway, at one point while we were all fooling around on the beach, I had to sit down and relax sekajap because ngalih berabis. This gave me time to reflect. There is nothing better than being with nature and just trying to relax and calm yourself. And I thought to myself, why dont I do this kind of thing more instead of wasting time in the house and playing games. Its a shame how much of this year I have spent sitting in the living room not really doing much. Sayang.

I guess its easy to realise now how my laziness has made me lose out on alot tapi esok esok, bebalik jua ni main game sampai 8-10 hours. Its Syaitans way of making me waste time is what I have just realised. I finished watching the documentary of 'the arrivals' and am amazed at the amount of work they have put in just to make people realize what we are actually put on earth for. Even though controversial, its message is simple. Allah has blessed us with life and has asked of little in return. There is 24 hours in the day. Kiranya tidur 8. 16 hours in a day for us to use as we please and all we need to do is pray 5 times a day. Inda sampai 40 minute from the 16 hours we have been granted. Even this is hard for us to do.

I read that Nabi Muhammad SAW used to pray until his feet were swollen and he used to ask Allah for forgiveness 70 times a day. This is the prophet, the man who had the qualities we can only dream of achieving. If my badan sakit, instead of praying dulu I lay down, sometimes tetidur and then sembahyang akhir sikit lagi miss waktu. Aku kan bebuat macam atu. Mun Nabi Muhammad SAW minta forgiveness 70 times a day, just imagine what we should be trying to achieve in our everyday lives. Main game dapat. Liat TV dapat. Main bola dapat. Even 5 minutes during these activities, duduk, tutup mata and beg for forgiveness. Ani syaitan punya skill kan buat kami lupakan kepada Allah. Making us enjoy dunia. No matter how young we are and how much time we THINK we have left on earth, it is nothing compared to akhirat.

We have been given the Al-Quran and sunnah nabi as guidelines. We are suppose to take Prophet Muhammad SAW as an example on how to structure our lives. No matter how invincible we feel at this moment, it could all end in an instant.

So to use an old bruneian saying, 'sembahyang sebelum kana sembahyangkan'

Hopefully we can all change our lives for the better. There is never a point where we cant improve ourselves as muslims and human beings. Insyallah.

Forgive me if I have offended or maybe sound hypocritical.

Bah

Assalamualaikum

Fresh Start

2009-05-30T06:46:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum readers.

First of all saya apologize for the lack of activity on the blog. Im sure not many people read, but I appreciate those who do. Reason for not updating, first I had my last exam yesterday which I didnt really study for but it was still something on my mind. Second is ive been watching this documentary. A mind blowing one. Ill get to that bit later though.

One point I got out of it though is that life is full of choices. We have been blessed by Allah with the ability to make these choices in our everyday life. The dissapointing thing is so many times we make the wrong choices. Its hard to accept this though as most of us has been brought up with a firm belief in what success is. It is a very common Bruneian culture to persuade children that education comes first. This of course is very true. But we need to do this while completing our main priority. The first and most important out of all priorities we have and that is to complete our obligations as an Islam. This of course comes first with the five pillars of Islam and the second pillar is prayers. These are not labelled 1-5 just randomly. Prayers always come first on top of all other daily routines. Prayers should be the top of list of our daily routines.

Now where is this coming from all of a sudden? I have always been reluctant to give any advice or try and preach when I blog. Or talk to people for that matter. I have never seen myself as having the right to tell people what to do. But you see, what I have realised is I am not telling people what to do. I am only giving advice. I want to stress this most importantly. We all have obligations towards Islam but it never hurts to have gentle reminders once in a while. We have been blessed with the Al-Quran and Sunnah Nabi Muhammad SAW as a guideline to live our lives. It is important we embrace these as part of our daily lives. Even if you cannot do these completely, we have all been given the freedom of choice. Its all in the baby steps. Nobody can expect you to go from a person who does little to someone who does alot and it would be unfair if you were expected to.

The main point. Sincerity. Ikhlas. Do what you can to the utmost of your capabilities as long as you are ikhlas in what you are doing.

Now I hope people do not think I am being full of myself for typing all this. It is all just a gentle reminder. This is also the way I will start blogging from now on. Since this time I choose to do what I have been told to do in the Al-Quran and that is to spread the word of Islam. These are hard times but our freedom of choice is still ours.

For those of you who need a little more kick watch this documentary by the wakeup project

Some of you may have already heard of this. The documentary is called the arrivals. I want to stress that this is all just the documentary punya pembuat punya opinion. There is no message of going against any word of islam, i have watched all the way to the last 4 episodes.

Ok atu saja kali for now. Forgive me if I have in any way offended you. Please take everything with an open mind.

Bah atu saja.

Assalamualaikum

Kepada pilots yang kan main lufbru

2009-05-25T16:22:00.000-07:00

aku register sudah kamu. Tapi i dont know siapa saja kan main. kamu baca kah blog ani jua? well u have to let me know. siapa yang baca, tanya2 kan so I know whose names to put down. I think pilots dapat main anyway, aku kana gitau probably dapat. So let me know. yo

Star Trek

2009-05-19T19:09:00.000-07:00

My dearest readers

Tadi for the second time in my 2 years in Canterbury, I went to go see a movie at the Odeon. Selalunya aku malas wah pasal its expensive, its jauh and I would much rather wait for the movie file to come out online. Tapi kan, I forgot how awesome it is watching a movie in the cinema. Siuk jua with the completely pimped out sound system and the huge screen with the comfy chairs. I guess you cant really compare it with the awesomeness of laying down on your bed and watching something on the pc, but its a good change.

So anyway, I watched Star Trek. Im not a fan of the series and I never will be. To be honest I think its the lamest thing on TV :P Im not a fan of Star Wars and Enterprise either. All of it is kinda lame. But the movie, I have to say, is very awesome. The characters have that very same feel as the originals, or at least from the commercials I use to see on TV. They even look the same. I think the movie has been very well made. It being the prequel to everything jua makes you feel like you are not missing out anything by not watching the 17 seasons of Star Trek. Quite amazing. Eye candy wise.... the girl in it is lawa but not super lawa.

Ohh props to Simon Pegg. Dawn of the dead, Hot fuzz, Run Fatboy Run. He is very funny. "Beam me up Scotty"

Well anyway, from awesome to not so awesome. How I met your mother season 4 finale hari ani. It sucks. Season 3 and 4 has been the most dissapointing seasons of TV I have ever watched. The only thing that would make it worse is if I had to sit through commercials while watching it. Ted has gotten annoying. I mean, kajap he finds out he is an ass so he tries to better himself so when he meets the mum.. he isnt at ass. Tapi rasa ku... sama jua masih si Ted ani. Barneys catch phrases arent catchy or smart anymore. Marshall is lame. Apakan... jumping across the buildings ani. Lame~ Robyn and Lilly getting pregnant in real life I guess kinda spoilt everything jua. haha. Ohhh well. If season 5 isnt tons better in the first couple of episodes im going to stop watching. At least the story line has finally progressed a little.

For something way better. Big Bang Theory is a masterpiece.

Finally. Live long and prosper. And to do that, be doa lah kepada Allah.

Assalamualaikum

Untuk Champion Saja

2009-05-18T06:50:00.000-07:00

Blogging Time Exam

2009-05-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

Its been a while mainly because it is exam period for those of us who arent working and are still in university. I cant think of any time I dread more than exams besides the time i sit down on my laptop chair thinking about what to blog about. And since it is the time where most students tend to procrastinate the most, I have been abusing that fact and have been blog hopping for a couple of days. The best suprise, tecari blog kawan ku who is super articulate and makes me ashamed to even have a blog. I can always use the 'I have exams' excuse if this post gets lame (my posts are always lame though)

Si Apiz baru balik ke Brunei last last week so I am the only person in UK now who was from my pilot batch. Its kinda depressing when I think about it, especially when I was digging through myself the other day and I found my Hi Visibility jacket I use to wear and also my Flight Log book. Actually come to think about it, there is one more thing I dread more than exam times. Time exam pilot. Gila atu baru tear jerking. Those were some of the toughest days I have ever lived but if I got through those then I dont see why I cant get through my last 2 exams.

So apa lagi ahhh. Nothing much really. You see only around 6 people read my blog. Hahaha. Good friends kamu ani ehhh. Taking 5 minutes of your precious time and waste it here. Tag board inda laku. I promise after exams ill post some cool stuff. Thorpe park and the beach beckons. Before I go, nah video youtube.

Ohh and if you dont watch Britains Got Talent, watch Jamie Pugh.

Late

Awesome

2009-05-10T18:00:00.003-07:00

Vagabond where the opening act for james morrison masa concert nya. been following them a little.

exams are on tuesday :O

Bila Disini

2009-05-07T06:08:00.001-07:00

A proper post soon. Just wanted to share another video

Recognize awesome - Puma Ad yang cam baie

2009-05-04T06:19:00.000-07:00

I apologize for the lack of updates. I usually have a new post page open but I can never find anything to write about, that or im just lazy. I have been procastinating a lot lately, finding the smallest of things to do just so I dont have to sit down and open my books. I do find that I am not as stressed as I was last year though, possibly because I actually went into most of my classes this time round. Palui pulang masih ni, exams being in a week and alum blajar. But let me share my strategy with you, MAIN TARGET. I know it may seen like a dumb move, tapi my course always seems to recycle the format of the exam every year. They will always have the same 'pick 2 out of the 4 questions' and dont reuse any material you use for one question in the other. And the questions atu for the past 3 years at least, is always pasal the same topics. So its like begging me to main TARGET.

And I dont really see any problem in using this strategy. Its not like when im working im going to be put down on the spot, given a question and telling them everything I know about said question. Even if I do become a Barrister, I will have tons of time to prepare for a case and even that will be main target :P Its not like I have to memorize every fact of Criminal law to argue in one case, or every fact of European law if I was to argue in an EU case. I think the main point of exams is to put you under stress, and the person who can best deal with the stress will be the winner in the end. Even if that said person doesnt happen to get the highest mark in the end :P

But this just may be screwed up logic. I dont really know.

Last year at around this time, I blogged about become a better muslim. The very next day after I posted the post, ada comment that a good muslim doesnt date which I said I was going to do in the post. Of course, I took it that the comment'or was calling me a bad muslim. Ive been thinking about this for a couple of days now. Well a couple of weeks more like. And I think I finally sadar that in fact I have a long way to go. Even a simple piece of advice and my ego tarus went into full defense mode and then kan mentel mentel. If a simple comment can make my ego jadi basar, or my huge ego being hurt, then I am far from making myself be a better muslim. And this was one year ago, and baru baru kan sadar.

Its only lately I have been finding all the flaws in my life and realising most of my weaknesses. I dont really know if I have what it takes to better myself without having any help. As people, and especially me, its hard to notice our own flaws until we are pointed them out by someone else. Cana jua. Ego basar. Asal kan beibadat, kan mencari praise of some sort from anyone. Hancur ehh.

So basically, yang ku cakap ani, is nothing really. Just because aku sadar doesnt mean I can do much about it. I guess we just take steps in order to prevent it from getting worse and hopefully insyallah we will be given the strenght to better ourselves one day.

2009-04-27T12:05:00.001-07:00

Im back in Kent. Got this video from rez

Notte Sento (English subtitles) from napdan on Vimeo.

Costa

2009-04-25T03:28:00.000-07:00

I have been staying at my grandmothers house for a week plus since my ibu is in England so I havent had access to internet. I have missed a total of 3 football matches, United football matches no less, and all my weekly tv shows. Cana kan download when you are working on an internet connection in Costa yang downloading speed nya lagi slow dari internet speed Brunei. But from what ive heard, internet brunei mikin maju. Syabas.

Since I have been staying in the very inda laku town of Eastleigh, I dont really have lots of things to talk about. This place is very small, very chavvy since all the kids of the older generation who live here has nothing better to do. I think this is what happens when you live in such a small enviroment with kadai JD, JJB, SPORTS WORLD are shoved down your throat. Terpaksa jadi chav. haha. Chav is poklen UK for those not in the know. Ive been coming to Costa to charge my laptop, my ds, my ipod... everything just so it lessens the burden on my grandmother. It is very kesian the way UK treats the older generation. But im not getting into politics (something which i have been caught up with after reading the newspaper page for page ever since ive been here).. its lame.

I have a Flickr account. Hahaha. I dont think I get its full use. Kan ku follow account Zac Efron but he doesnt even have a page. I mean whats the point besides keeping up with the updates of Rezdarez. Tapi atu pun all I have to do is text. Ohhh well, fingers crossed mr Zac-ky E creates an account very soon.

I have also been playing Pokemon alot, again. I cant wait to get home and play online :D

Thats all really. Southpark has been the only tv series I have managed to follow due to its small file size on the southpark website. I want to be a pirate now.

Listen to Consoler of the Lonely and Carolina Drama by the Raconteurs.

Thorpe Park

2009-04-14T19:15:00.000-07:00

Just a quick note, starting from tomorrow night I will be away from a proper internet connection.

Today we went to Thorpe Park. I dont know if any of you has ever gone, tapi if you havent, and you like roller coasters and rides, go. Tomorrow. Awal ani if you can. Siok.

We all woke up at 530am, which was an achievement since kami serumah tidur at 330am and kami tarus ke train station to take the first train to london. Tapi nada group ticket bejual until 820, kalau bali for 7am it would cost 42 pounds. We got to London at around 1030 in the end and inda sampai Thorpe park until 12 labih. That was annoying and I think one of the only dissapointments of the whole trip. Inda cukup masa. On our way to the park, in the thorpe park coach ride we also got a quick unscheduled ride jua. As our bus was driving, suddenly a car from the other side of the road kan masuk junction sebelah bus. Atu tarus bus break, bus telanggar kereta, bus punya bumper hilang. All in all in wasnt a bad accident, cali pulang bus driver kami keluar picking up the bumper. Dapan2 police station lagi. We called the ride Crash.

Sudah sampai kami tarus Collossus. Youtube it. Then Rush. Youtube. Then No way out tapi paling lame di dunia so dont YT it. Then kami stealth. YT it. Then kami log ride and basah berabis. Then kami Nemesis, YT. Then aku Samurai. YT. Siok berabis. Im not kidding you. Its not 322am and the past 48 hours, ive been asleep for 2 hours. Kepisan pulang ni so grammar mistakes and punctuation comfirm salah. Ill have a couple of pictures for u when i meet my sister.

Bah rasa ku terabang sudah from my chair ni. Gila. Tapi ani untuk kamu. Lawa berabis

Spring Break 2009

2009-04-10T20:53:00.000-07:00

I know we are lagging behind everyone else, and this may be bangas news, but Kent finally sampai sudah cuti spring. Its good friday this week though and everything tutup. In the islamic calender, every friday is a good friday. Bukan lagi good saja, excellent and amazing friday.

Im just going to quickly tell you about my essays and then go straight to the main topic of the story. I went to birmingham to watch mraz this tuesday and came back to kent on wednesday night. It was suppose to be thursday balik tapi I had an essay due which I was suppose to finish on monday before i left for birmingham. Unfortunately inda menjadi, so I came back early. Abis duit. And my stay in birmingham pun unfortunately banyak unnecessary duit keluar jua. Ohh well, unavoidable. Anyway, I got back at night. Sudah mandi and do all my daily things i do which I couldnt do during the day pasal I was on the train, I started my essay at 12am. Then I realised, ehhh tinggal 14 jam ni baru due. Dapat main game skajap. Main game skajap became 3 hours. So at 3am, I listened to a lecture to gain knowledge. 4am. Ngalih tia ku. I didnt get enough sleep in birm so I decided to tidur skajap saja. An hour or two. Jadi 6. I woke up at 10am almost 1030. Atu ya. Tarus panic buat essay.

I think pasal panic atu, efficiency ku naik and I didnt do the things I normally do while im writing essays. You know, check internet. Dangar music. Menalur.

I finished the essay in 2hours 30 minutes. A record. I proof read (past tense) it and I think it was ok. Hahahaha it wasnt crappy but it wasnt great. It was what it was, last minute. Tapi biartia lah. At least I finished. And now im reaping the rewards. Cuti. I have a couple of videos I want to post up from tadi tapi I have to wait til I get them from orang Kent. Atu lain kali.

Now I want to cerita pasal the genius that is Reza, my housemate. Ia baru abis his final course work of his course. Aku kan gitau kamu amazing pun karang inda kamu pecaya. The storyline is a little hard to follow at first tapi kamu liat a couple of times paham kamu tu.

Something to Tell (Short Film) from Reza on Vimeo.

Ok itu saja. His other videos are on HERE HERE HERE kalau kamu kan liat.

Ok Salam

Kes Jealous

2009-04-04T16:40:00.000-07:00

I read peoples blogs, and use my sisters facebook and look at peoples pictures, and jealous ku berabis because everybody seems to be more active than I am at present moment. Ada gambar bini2 main netball competitions, gambar lelaki main bola almost every single day of the week, jalan2 minum coffee at wherever serves coffee, travelling across the Uk and Europe. Then I look at what I am doing, sleeping the day away or spending the whole day dapan ps3 and laptop. Its not really my fault, partly pasal I still have 2 essays due at the end of the week, tapi its depressing. I havent been out of the house today and aku seorang dirumah. Usually I would take this golden opportunity to control the living room, speakers aku punya, tv aku punya, space semua aku punya tapi instead aku tetidur waiting for isyak tadi. I think tetidur atu pasal malas kan buat kraja pulang jua. Tebangun pukul 12am lapas atu. Useless. Kraja inda bebuat. Now its 130am and I dont even know where the hour and a half went. Pasal main pokemon platinum kali.

Oklah in order to save me from coming off as a complete loser-ish loser, I did go to a James Morrison concert last week in London. That was awesome. Jason Mraz next week in Birmingham. So I am not a complete loser, just sedikit saja. My Ibu is coming to UK in the middle of April so that will get me out of the house. Some of the guys in Kent are planning a trip to Thorpe Park on the 14th of April. So I guess things are looking up. If only the word count on my european law essay would increase. Complete tah jadinya tu.

In the mean time, pokemon platinum saja lah yang mennyamankan hati ku. Siapa mau lawan. Aku bagi ID ku then lawan kami online. hahaha

Mayday Parade?!?!?! haha

2009-04-01T16:52:00.000-07:00

This is for my boy. hahaha lawa rif. ur awesome

Cartman 'Handle it? For 2 billion dollars id handle my grandpas balls dude'

HAHAHA awesome. Bah apalagi, download tah episode 4

Soulmate

2009-03-31T17:08:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum everybody. Sorry batah nada anything yang berpotensi. The whole rick rolled thing the last post didnt get everyone as hyped as i thought it would have. I enjoyed it. Hahaha. It was awesome. Anyway, saya ada cerita hangat. ABOUT ME!

So today I woke up at 6am in Brunei Hall, prayed and then left to come back to Kent tarus. I didnt really want to stay in London longer than I needed to and I had class today anyway. I left and I got back home, went to tesco and bought some milk. In 3 days, i have only slept 6 hours in total because of an essay I needed to speed through. Figures, I think I did crap at it.

Anyway when I got home, I turned on the PS3 and started playing Ultimate Team on fifa. Its awesome. Orang PS3, add me (eyesherrield).

BAH BACK TO THE MAIN TOPIC OF THE STORY.

I went to class today a little early so I could go to the surau and pray before my class. Asar masa ani is at 430 so its hard to pray at home and still make it in time for class at 5. Anyway, when I was finished, aku cerita sekajap with my friend disana just catching up a little and then quickly rushed to class. Tapi on my way out of the surau, there was a girl who came out of the ladies side jua. Ia usai usai tudongnya and pakai kasut and stuff. At first I didnt pay much attention because I was late for class but when she faced towards me, atuuuu.... abis lah composure ku tarus. Hilang the 'I dont care im wearing my vice-president hoodie to class' and out came the 'crap kenapa cawie usulku hari ani!!' Of all the days.

So this girl yeah. She has white skin and a middle eastern look. When she came up closer, I found out she had blue eyes. She wears glasses jua btw. She is around the same height as me, maybe just a little shorter. Kurus kurus figure nya, well from what I could tell anyway. She wasnt wearing tight fitting clothes or anything so I was taking my best bet. All of this was happening so fast and I had to think fast.

Senyum ku.

Ia senyum balik.

DAMNNNN APA KU BUAT LAGI!!!

So I said hi and she said hi back. Then I noticed she was carrying a law book. A EUROPEAN LAW BOOK, THE SAME CLASS I WAS HEADED FOR!!!

So i asked her, have you finished your essay yet?

ATU CAWIEEEEEE!!!!

She said no tapi cakap ia kan masuk seminar. I asked her where. She said arah the building next to the cinema. MY SEMINAR ROOM!!!! Fate anyone?

So I said I was going to the same place, and bejalan tia kami to class. Aku cerita2 sama ia pasal essay and why ive never seen her in class before. Rupanya this was only a replacement class for one she missed on monday. I asked her for her name. She told me. Ill keep it secret first and tell you later ;)FATE!!!

So we got to class, class was lame tapi sudah abis class she came up to me and asked me if I was busy. Ehhhhh nya ku.... this has never ever happened to me in my life. I said no and she asked me if i wanted to go and have coffee. So we sat in the cinema cafe right next to class for HOURSSSS talking about stuff. When I say hours eksen ku pulang, it was around 40 minutes before we both went our seperate ways. Tapi hear this... or read this, apa saja lah.

She told me she is from Egypt. She told me she has 2 brothers and a younger sister. She is in her 2nd year same as me. Her brother is a pilot! She loves drinking coffee because she is addicted to it and is using it to get over ciggarettes which i kalahkan aku, ia quit betahun sudah. Akhir akhir in the conversation I find out she has been single for almost as long as I have... tapi I dont really know how long I have been single actually... at least 2 years lah kali. hahaha.

And the kicker, ia cakap she is amazed she had never noticed a guy like me around uni before. Lawa lah tu ertinya. HAHAHAHAHHAA

So you see guys. Im kinda in a daze right now. Half 'ive met my soulmate' and half ngalih pasal aku inda cukup tidur. Tapi pokoknya, esok kami jumpa lagi!!!!

Tapi ani lah yang paling power. Her name, and you will never believe what her name is.......

APRIL FOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

Bad English

2009-03-27T19:50:00.000-07:00

I love bad english. It makes me happy to read when people try and write their blog entries, tapi grammar nya inda berapa. ESPECIALLY kalau orang atu steady english nya tapi sudah when it comes to writing abiissss. I love it. I think pasal it makes me feel better when orang ucap melayu ku. I dont even think my melayu is that bad. When I try to mix it with English, thats when the meaning of what I am saying hilang sedikit. Grammar and sentence structure shouldnt be at top priority when mixing languages.

Anyway back to my point, cali wah orang yang inda berapa English nya. Im not going to say any names, but im sure my close friends know some of the people im referring too. Hahaha. Its not that im trying to be mean, I am mean sudah so apa boleh buat. I cant even help it, reading close friends punya blog, and suddenly ada grammar mistake that just makes you laugh out loud tarus. It makes my day. Pacah buiii

Tadi aku liat this youtube VLOG. It was this girl who looked young tapi still old enough to be checked out. Guys know what im talking about. Anyway, baju nya macam teruk lah, not what a respectable girl of any age should be wearing. So i was listening to it, waiting for some grammar mistakes so I could ketawa, and then ia cakap, word for word (kali)

'good luck to my bestfriend for her PMB :D'

HAHAHAHAHAHHA ATU MATI. PMB BARU!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

Kalau kamu kan liat click ---->>>>>>>SINI HAHAHA

BruNotts 2009

2009-03-25T19:15:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum Warrahmatullahi Wabaraqatuh. Yo yo yo.

Sorry its been a while, almost one week since Notts, but ive been busy finishing this one essay which is worth 40% of the module. Terpaksa banar2 so I dont screw up this year. Last year siok, since first year doesnt count. Biar tia. Alhadullilah abis one essay. 3 more to go.

Anyway, Brunotts bah. Play by play.

First game lawan chitty chitty bang bang. Rupanya they were team KFC from winter games, and they qualified for the quarter finals that time too. Tarus2 first game kami was a must win. We won 1-0 and keeper kami pulled off a brilliant save at virtually the last kick of the game. He was one on one with the striker.

Second game kami lawan Destroyerz, eventual champions. First we scored a goal with some brilliant striker interplay. Keeper had no chance. Sayangnya, around 3 minutes from the end of the game, our goal scorer inda dapat memblock striker dorang and his shot flew right through our keepers arms. Sayang. Id stay more 2 points dropped than kami kaluk dapat draw. Unfortunately, stratergy destroyerz main 1 striker and yang lain defend saja worked really well... sampai champions. Hahaha baie

Third game lawan Aces. This was suppose to be the game yang inda payah berabis, no offence to Aces. We went into the match knowing dorang kalah sudah 2 kali, sekali kalah 4-1. Mestilah kami masuk confident sikit. TAPINYA, SUDAH MAIN!!! Unluckly lah kami. We just couldnt score. 0-0

Fourth game. Sakura. Champions winter games and dorang undefeated that tornament jua. Unfortunately for us, this tornament dorang kalah before lawan kami. They were in a must win. Siapa manang diantara kami, iatah tu yang qualify second place. Destroyerz won all their games except against kami. Si chip score. Kami losing 1-0.

THEN 1 MINUTE FROM THE END OF THE GAME! EQUALIZER!!!!

Result, 1-1. Because of the draw, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang and kami mesti manang the next game. If CCBB manang, they would qualify. If they drew and kami manang, we would go thru. Kalau kami dua2 kalah, sakura would go thru. Auh confusing. Payah kami work it out before our last game.

Last game lawan Glasgow. Kami leading 3-1 at one point until I made a mistake and kami concede 1 goal, so it was 3-2. Kami manang pulang, the winner scored by MR AMAZING CAPTAIN HAFIIZH HASSAN! CCBB lost their last game.

FIRST TIME EVER. KISUMU MASUK QUARTER FINALS.

Ok, you know when you come out of the hardest group in the whole world, you would hope with all your strength that the quarter finals would at least be kind to you. Hopefully you would get one of the lesser teams. I mean, its well deserved if you knocked out WINTER GAMES CHAMPIONS AND ALSO QUARTER FINALISTS. Thats 2 of the favourite teams kami kalahkan sudah. But no. Kami dapat Senna.

Kami kalah btw. Malas ku cerita kan pasal padas masih. If only I was fitter and lagi handal. Biar tia. We lost 1-0. Captain Senna shoot. Our Keeper caught the ball. When he landed, he lost his grip on the ball and it rolled.... slowly..... berabis... over the line. Atu ya. Heartbreak hotel.

Ohhh well. Ada jua rasa qualify atu.

Next up, LUFBRU GAMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is for apiz, our brilliant captain.

2009-03-23T22:04:00.000-07:00

Sorry piz ani baru ku mampu. Kraja alum abis

Popular Culture, Media and Art

2009-03-20T01:37:00.000-07:00

When you see the module name (the one in the title), the things that come to mind is awesome stuff. Popular Culture.. football is a culture, games are culture. Well thats what I first thought. Rupanya if I just wiki-ed the word culture, id discover what it actually means is

* excellence of taste in the fine arts and humanities
* an integrated pattern of human knowledge, belief, and behavior that depends upon the capacity for symbolic thought and social learning
* the set of shared attitudes, values, goals, and practices that characterizes an institution, organization or group.

If I knew this is what I was getting myself into when I put myself down for the module, ready2 ku 1st week of uni drop tarus and change it for something which is easy and awesome. I thought id be studying about really cool stuff, which is what I thought the word POPULAR meant. Who would have thought, no 21 uni weeks in to the year, I know nothing about Popular Culture. Hahaha sialan. This was suppose to be the easy module I take so I can fit in more time to play football, main game and concentrate on my other modules, my law modules, my most important modules. But now im stuck, stayed up all night just so I could make it to the 10am class on a friday because I always miss it. Its not that I am sengaja-ing missing the classes jua. This year has been a very good year in terms of going into class and studying. I finally learned how to use the online library. My essay marks werent terrible (Except for ni the whole topic of this post) and for each of my law modules, I have only missed 1 seminar each all year. Compared to last year, I think I deserve a pat on the back.

Its a shame im going to go into the easter holidays, again just like last year, worrying about how I am very likely going to fail an exam unless ada miracle. Like last year. Tapi at least this year its only the one exam yang mesti miracle. Last year semua mesti miracle, and Alhamdullilah success jua akhirnya. Ohh well. My dad told me tadi nothing which is worth it comes easy. I should of took something yang inda brapa worth it tapi boleh kraja masih. Hahahaha.

Brunotts countdown. 2 days.

Countdown to actually being any good at playing football. ELLLAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Bah atu saja.

Southpark S13E02

2009-03-19T06:36:00.000-07:00

Apa lagi. Mininova lah

Tempat Chillz

2009-03-18T20:27:00.000-07:00

Hari atu Shuk came to UK kajap to do his license thing. Sampat kami main bola and everything and cerita2 about the old days. One thing yang paling ku miss was a place online where kami dapat gossip2 and mengumpat. Not that mengumpat is a bad thing, but it gives everyone something to talk about. Hahaha, not really a good reason but whatcha going to do.

So I decided to make this site. Its not a blogging site. Its a site where I will post up random stuff, off the top of my head, sometimes, a couple of times a week just so you all have that one extra URL to go to when you guys are bored. Im hoping this is going to get a good reception. I really want this to be a more visitor oriented site, where reading the tagboard and comments is the only reason you come here. Hahaha

Oklah. I think this is so I dont do my work pulang ni. Deadlines inda lagi batah. Ok. Please tag and do whatever. Be whoever you want. Cali kah dramatic kah whatever. This is your site.